Sunnyham's Blog

SiCk of All these DrAma !!

sunnyham — Thu, 22 Jul 2010 12:59:44 +0000

First the meeting of all the bridesmaid, then the recording, then the msn session then F**King bachelorette celebration (somemore with theme and hotel room) Come on ley, I really very poor this month, pleae wake up your idea.. why isit that her wedding is so super troublesome.

I am really not interested to involve in so many troublesome stuff I just want to plan and look forward to my own wedding. I kinda got sick of all these drama arrangement. In the past, I think I am really willing to do all these since its my best friend wedding, however after something and conflict of interest with my own wedding, I really feel sick abt all these that. I do doubt and don’t put hope that they will do the same for me but anyway I am just so tired now with new job, new learning, new journey that are making me more hetic…. I am just so upset now…

Loneliness & Competitive

sunnyham — Sat, 05 Jun 2010 03:22:55 +0000

The loneliness and competitive is getting stronger in me… Just saw Pam anniversary photo… indeed its very nice but I had another thought. Did she went for the PS after seeing J9 shoots ? Doubts.. anyway i tell myself not to think so much and just concentrate on my own shoots… Some ideas I have seem similiar to theirs, i just wanna something unique.. but as an ordinary person, that seems tough… No matter how looking forward I am, if your partner who are not excited over it make it nothing interesting too…. Lonely is the only words to describe my feeling right now.. really…

upset !!

sunnyham — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 07:23:15 +0000

I am feeling really upset by how he talk to me.. I just need someone to talk to me over the phone. It always made me really upset in heart.. I am alaways been the one giving in. I really got enough and tired of all these excuses he give me.. I dun want to cry over such things again, can you understand …

Inside Out Difference !

sunnyham — Mon, 19 Apr 2010 14:36:16 +0000

I am a person who can control my emotion well in front of others. I may look strong on the outside but inside my heart I feel lonely and upset most of the time.

On the other hand, I am very competitve, I wanted to win so much but I can’t most of the time. I always feel myself being the unlucky one even though I may have already acheived a lot. I feel upset today that Qiang didn’t pick me up from work. I really had hard time carrying my laptop but no choice got to bring it home since I am working night shift tomorrow. Sometimes, I just need some slight little attention from him. He may be too focus in his work that I am always forgotten. I feel upset that he is stress but I really dunno what to do. I try not to disturb him with my things but I personally feel upset in heart that he ending up do not pay attention to me anymore. That really upset me.. sometimes when you try to give in more, you may really ending up losing more. I just need my partner to give me some small surprise sometimes or even just to show some concern over my matter. Like asking whether I had my lunch ? How are you today… Maybe I am really expecting too much ? I have no idea…. I really feel unhappy at work and my life now are rather in a mess… I got migrant again…sigh…

姨丈爸爸永別

sunnyham — Thu, 11 Mar 2010 13:57:47 +0000

“Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. ~From a headstone in Ireland”

Today we managed to send my姨丈爸爸 his last journey. Not much of weeping scene I should say but it’s just make me feel sour at heart. The news break in on sunday (07-Mar-10) that my godfather passed away. It was shocking news as we just met him few weeks ago during CNY and he is doing good at that time. In my impression, he is really a very kind-hearted man/father who really loves kids. I feel blessed to be love and dote by him. Goodbye forever !

Saturday Again !

sunnyham — Sat, 06 Mar 2010 06:06:37 +0000

It’s another sat again ! My left eyes feel some sort of sharp pain. Its just feeling so uncomfortable. Indeed I am disappointed that the 1st consultation with aisle got cancelled. I am really looking forward for the 1st consultation and can’t wait to see the shop itself after paying so much $$$. Maybe we should just pay $20 on that day and continue the consultation. Let me check with my darling again =)

Hyprocrites !!!

sunnyham — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 13:54:09 +0000

I am really very angry with a colleagues remark. I was chasing this “F” colleagues of mine to update a report because today is the deadline.Two weeks ago and last week I have already send out reminders to request them to update the record. This is a productivity metrics report which capture what the department does for the month.

She respone by saying me very “Fan” and this report has no vaue add. This report is requested by our global team and it measure the department KPI and justify for the FTEs. I am no fed up that I feel like slapping her at that point of time. If she is so good at saying that then jut tell the big bosses. People in the department are just being so hyprocrites that I really hate it ! I wish i can get a better job and leave this department soon !!! How i wish !!!

Angry Angry Angry Angry !

sunnyham — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 12:41:22 +0000

Can you please stop barking !!! Its damn irritating !!!!!!!!

A person that lost her direction !

sunnyham — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 12:40:22 +0000

Phobia is define as ” a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object, activity, or situation that leads to a compelling desire to avoid it.” (Dictionary.com). A phobia may also be inherited, or rather taught. Take the case of Brian, an 11yr old boy who is afraid of flying. Why is an 11yr old so afraid of flying? The answer may be that his mother is also afraid. We learn from our parents, and trust them to protect us. Therefore, if our parent, who is supposed to protect us, is afraid of something, we learn that it must be harmful and that we too should be afraid of it. The big danger here is that what might be a mild fear in a parent, can develop into a full debilitating phobia in a child. (McMahon, John L).

I am afraid of dogs. This is inherited from my mother. My heart just couldn’t coordinate with my leg when I heard the dog bark. A dog lover will never understand this and I find it being unbelievable that I am always being critise for being scare of dogs. I feel really upset in heart. I am crying so badly while typing this blog, my tears just couldn’t stop. I see myself as coward but I just can’t help it. I remincise myself at work at home that I love dogs but I just couldn’t control my own heart and leg well when come to the actual fact. Its painful at heart when you can’t even go to the washroom because a dog its at the toilet itself . I reay dunno what I should do not. I already see myself as useless most of the time. My self esteem has been humiliated and being a super sensitive person i really lost my direction in life

Occupied

sunnyham — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 02:50:04 +0000

I really enjoy the process of the wedding preparation for the time being. my mind just feel fully occupied by my wedding and just can’t concentrate on my job hunt ! Sigh

The coming event will be my graduation ceremony as well as bridal studio first consultation. i really hope there is nice dresses there. Keeping my finger cross the service is good too. After like a few bad comment.